Atarax

you have lupus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been using this medicin but recently after using it along with some side effects like dry mouth and confusion I strongly feel that there is something drag me toward suicide unconsiously. now I really dont know what to do if I dont use it I cant sleep and I will have fast heart beats and while im using it I feel like I want to kill my self. what should I do? are ther any medicine that I can use instead? thank you for your help.

I have been taking for a severe rash that looks like measles tiny red bumps blotches that keeps getting worse, doctors can't figure out diagnosis, when I take Atarax I seem to itch more....any other people have this problem, should I stop taking it, when I itch all over it is very severe and painful, any suggestions or comments.  Thank you